Yes, I attended meetings etc but I just couldn’t or didn’t see myself being in a service.I was angry and hurt and just still couldn’t understand why she had to die or why this happened to my family. I generally don’t like dealing with emotions and I tend to just push them aside or away. I did this when my dad died as I didn’t cry till Tosyn’s death. With Tosyn the emotions are totally different and I wanted to lash out at God. Infact I’ve had many conversations with Him on why He let it happen. Those answers haven’t come oh but the song about trusting Him in church today really helped and will help towards the healing process. This is for anyone going through any form of grief ( you lost a friend, sibling, parent or child or relation).
It’s ok to be angry, It’s ok to be hurt, It’s ok to be in denial, It’s ok to be upset, It’s ok to feel guilty, It’s ok to feel pain, It’s ok …………….. But don’t stop trusting in God, But don’t stop talking about your pain, But don’t stop living …………………….. We will get healing, We will still feel the pain but it gets numb with time, We will still talk about what we miss about them. We will be ok …….. #fbochronicles #fbostilltrustsGod #fbostillthanksGod
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